It’s been a while since I last wrote anything. The more I work, the more I uncover—about the job, about myself, about how this whole thing works. I really thought the first three months would be the hardest, but I was wrong. It turns out, every step forward brings a new challenge, a harder case to solve, a bigger expectation to meet. And yet, here I am, pushing through it.
Life has been lonely, but it’s the path I chose. I wanted this—I wanted the space, the solitude, the time to fully focus on myself without distractions. It’s not always easy. There are moments when I crave something more, someone to share these thoughts with. But I remind myself: this is for me. To see how far I can go, to test my limits, to grow.
Honestly, I don’t even know what to express right now. My mind is consumed with one thing—how can I present the solution in a way that makes the client say, Yes, this is what we need. Every call, every meeting, every demo is just another attempt to crack the code of persuasion.
But for the past two days, I was happy. She reached out to me. We talked, we laughed, we had a good time. Sleep call—it felt nice. And then, just like that, she’s gone again. Two days. That’s all it took for her to pull away, to shut me out again. I don’t know if I should care, but maybe I do, just a little. Or maybe I’m just tired of this cycle. Either way, it’s fine. This job is enough of a distraction to keep my mind off her.
No time to dwell. New week, new goal. Let’s roll. Close at least one.